Take It Slow

Maybe 8 steps back.

What I must master first: Preparation.

The mental reflects the physical reflects the mental. I have to master the physical first, because I know that my surroundings greatly effect my internal state.

I must get into the habit of preparing for tomorrow the night before. Yeah, nobody taught me this. Packing my bags with the necessary items -- bills that must be paid, phone numbers that must be called, etc.

I must get into the habit of cleaning up after myself in smaller circles rather than letting it build up into a huge mess (this is true as a metaphor for many things in my life and heart, as well). Walking back to the kitchen to place a spoon in the sink. Folding a shirt on the floor over a chair. Tossing out napkins after I'm done with them. If you had any idea of how much of a slob I was...

I already have the habit of writing down my necessary To Do's -- be it on my wrist, or a scrap of receipt, or a napkin (my memory has never been that great) -- but I have to get into the habit of looking at it twice. What's the point of having a schedule book if you're never going to open it?

I must get into the habit of actually following through.

I did good for one day. This is my second, and I've already faltered.

*Cracks neck*.. time to get back on the horse. I can do this.

Step 2: Falling out of procrastination. Oh boy.